Taking time

I am a firm believer that if you want to build on something you take time to do it.
Whether you are building a house, you take the time to find blueprints, materials, etc to build it. Or if you are trying to build a relationship you take time to spend with them, to learn about them, to connect and bond with them.

This has been on my mind lately. Do I take time to spend with friends? Do I take time to make sure my friends know that I am interested in their lives, that I want to spend time with them? How do I show that I am interested in what is going on in their lives. How do I show them that I care, that I am here for them, that I will do what I can for them??

I dont want a one sided friendship. I dont want to be in any kind of relationship where I am 'taking' all the time. I want to be able to give back, I want to be able to give of my time, my resources, my experience, my love.

I know that any relationship is not going to be equally balances at all times. I know that there will be times that I take more than I give and vica versa. But I want to know, if it is even possible, that if I have a moment where I need something that I will not me pushed away, that I will not be made fun of, that reguardless of what I am in need of at that moment, my friend will be there, offering of their time and love, to help me through...

I have enjoyed reading all the blogs. I may not have time to write myself, but I like to at least check in and make sure you all are doing well. To see how I can help or pray for you all.

I have so many inner battles right now, this is just one of them. Most of them deal with friendships.

I think it is a good thing when a friend can come to me and point out an area where I need to work on and it is said not only with love and honesty, but not critical. If I have something I need to work on, tell me. I will probably be at the book store the next day finding a bible study covering it, wanting to be better...

I had a friend tell me a few months ago that I didnt trust God with our finances. It was VERY true! I didnt. I knew he would take care of us, but I didnt trust him completely. I do now. Partly because of the conversation, partly because of our situation, but I dont worry about the bills. I balance the check book regularly and I pay the bills, but I dont worry about where the money will come from. God has us covered!!

Anyway- this is a whole different blog, a different night, a different mindset...

These are my midnight ramblings :) I think I may need to change my blog title :)